Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Whitney Marie Shreeve

Two years ago today I had been up all night with Whitney because she wouldn't go to sleep and she was so fussy. This wasn't like Whitney, she had been sleeping so well at nights. I was so tired I didn't know what to do and then Travis came into her room and offered to take her on a walk to help her settle down. It was still dark out side on that cool Saturday morning. Travis took Whitney for a walk and I went and tried to get some sleep. After a while they came back and she wasn't crying but we both could tell that she look like she was pretty sick. I gave her some mediation and Travis and a good friend of ours gave her a blessing. She finally feel asleep and slept for a few hours and seemed to be doing a little better. Later that evening we took her to the emergency room that night and waited about an hour and then finally when we got in the doctor came in and said they were going to life light her to the children's hospital in Orlando. It was only a few seconds after the doctor left we watched her take her last breath. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about Whitney. We are so grateful to know that we can be together as a family for all eternity and that will be able to see Whitney again.

This is a poem that Travis wrote after that last walk that they took together. He shared this at her funeral.
January, 20 we took our last walk
I was still tired, it was only 4 o’clock

I looked in the stroller and moved the flashlight
Your face was so calm and your eyes were so bright

You looked so relaxed with big eyes and faint smile
I thought to myself “Oh, she’ll last a while.”

I knew in a couple of days you’d be better
I though at that time you were under the weather

We started off again and I said with a sigh
“I could do this every morning for the rest of your life”

Then it came that afternoon
The rest of you life…my promise came true.

But now I sit realizing I lied
For your life had not ended that day that you died

Our Father has given you life everlasting
I hope you are running and skipping and laughing

And I hope that we never take our last walk
Not because we’re not walking, but because there’s no clocks.

Not the ticking of time or the limits or ends
But eternity spent with our family and friends.
Whitney loved this monkey and it was so cute to see her hold it because it was as big as she was.

17 comments:

Kanion said...

I cried when Travis read this at Whitney's funeral and I cried again reading it now. That is such a beautiful, heartfelt poem from Travis to Whitney. You guys are an eternal family, and Heavenly Father is pleased with you. I love you Amy! If you guys ever need anything, we are here. In memory of Whitney.

Tara said...

oh my gosh amy, that poem is so beautiful! She was sure a special little girl and I am so blessed to have her as part of our family! I love you guys!

Kristen said...

What a beautiful poem, so sweet and touching.
There are no words really...
thanks for sharing that with me.
I'm sure thinking of you today..

Holly said...

BIG HUGS for BOTH of you!!
sniff sniff
Sorry you have such hard trials. I'm SO glad for the gospel and an eternal perspective. You are a BEAUTIFUL family and I can't wait to be able to take that magnificent full family portrait in the millenium.
LOVE YOU!!

Melody and Lance Jensen said...

I love that Poem. She looks adorable in the picture with her monkey! Love you guys!

Kristen said...

Wow. You two certainly have many blessings in store for all you have had to endure. What great testimonies you have. You are truly inspiring.

Meg said...

We love and miss her! And you guys too! Hopefully we will make it out there soon.

Robyn said...

We love you guys! Lilly still loves to see the pictures of Whitney on your blog!

The Sohm's said...

That poem is so amazing! You guys are so blessed to have her forever.

Jon and Sarah Jackson Family said...

I don't really know what to say other than I miss her. Sounds silly...I know you guys miss her tons more, but Jon and I are really looking forward to the time when we will get to see her again. We are looking even more forward to the time when we will get to see you both raise her up to what she was always meant to be. Hang in there.

Dallas said...

I wish we had known you back then and gotten to meet Whitney. We love you guys!

Hedlund Family said...

You always have been and continue to be an example to me. I love your wonderfully positive attitude and the loving way you remember Whitney.

Hedlund Family said...

You always have been and continue to be an example to me. I love your wonderfully positive attitude and the loving way you remember Whitney.

Kakes said...

Oh my goodness. I am so thankful for your optomism. I can not even try to understand what you have gone through, but it is refreshing to know that no matter what hardships you go through, you can be thankful and learn from your trials.

Jamie and Michael said...

Wow. You guys are such strong, amazing people to me. Things like this are what make me really thankful to have the gospel. Without it, life is dark and hopeless. With it, everything is beautiful. We miss you guys. I wish we'd had a chance to hang out more.

Linds and Thad said...

What a touching poem. Thank you for sharing that.

Ben & Diane said...

Dang it! I'm crying like a baby. Just like I cried for days (literally) when Lacey told me Whitney had passed away. I don't know if it was because Dallin was around her same age or because I just couldn't imagine the sadness and pain and loss you must have been feeling. I always wondered if it would have been harder to lose a baby after just a day or after having her for 16 wonderful months. I love you guys and I loved Whitney and what she brought to your lives. I loved Travis's poem then, just like I love it now. What an awesome day it will be when you guys are reunited.